G-Log

I’ve been very discontent with life lately. Well, I think ever since Leo was born. I figured it was the life change, post-partum depression, lack of sleep, etc. I keep waiting for it to go away, but it hasn’t, and I can’t keep expecting it to go away on its own. Some of you may say “You should be content with your life as it is.” And I suppose that’s true sometimes. But nobody can ever improve their life if they settle to be content with the way things are. Having Leo has really made me take stock of my life and how I live it. The fact of the matter is things NEED to change. I’ve recently gotten a new job that I start on March 1st. I think that will be a good first step. My current job isn’t bad and they have been good to me over the years, but I’m to the point where I just need a change. I’m burnt out, and the only cure is to move on. The second change that needs to be made, whether it be this year or next, is a move to a house. We need a yard for the kids to run and play. We need to get away from stressing about pissing off our upstairs or downstairs neighbors, or the HOA board member that has nothing better to do than survey the neighborhood. Leo needs a room he can sleep in during the summer, and we need an air conditioner that works and doesn’t run up our electric bill. Dean and I discussed staying in our current place for two years since we’ve had to move so much, but the reality is the last two moves have been necessities beyond our control. We were gipped out of buying a place. We were never given the time to look and find a place we would be happy in for an extended period of time. So come June we will start looking for a house to rent. If we can’t find one in our price range, we’ll stay put, but we at least need to try. I don’t think I’m asking for much. Am I? I want a better life for myself and my family, and that won’t happen if I don’t try.