G-Log

I can’t believe another year has gone by.  This one seemed all a blur too, but I suppose that’s understandable considering.  I used to attempt to say something profound about time passing, but at the moment that’s just not in me.  We’ve been together for six years and married for three, we had to move again this year, we’re in the same jobs.  But our lives have changed so much with the addition of our little boy into the family.  He’s an amazing and wonderful addition, no question, but I still haven’t quite completely adjusted yet.  Life seems more…hectic.  I keep having to remind myself to slow down and appreciate the good times, which I really struggle with between the chores and work and taking care of Leo.  I’m completely exhausted.  I know as he gets older it will get a little easier (physically at least–not mentally or emotionally).  I thought I would be sad when Christmas was over, but I think I’m ready for a new year.  I’m excited to watch Leo grow, and start walking and talking.  I’m excited to spend a week at the coast with my family, probably Leo’s first time at the beach.  I’m hoping I can find the motivation to start working out and finally losing some of this baby weight.  I think that would help in the exhaustion department.  Most of all I’m ready to just face whatever comes next. 

Happy New Year everyone.  Party enough for both of us–we’ll be sleeping the midnight hour away.

Hello out there in the ether. I know it’s been months since I’ve written anything–I’ve been kind of busy. Most of the time I’m so exhausted by the end of the day I don’t want to do much thinking.

So much has changed. Leo is rolling over, crawling for the most part, trying to stand up, and is getting his first teeth. It’s amazing how fast he has changed. It occurred to me tonight that I need to commit the time to catch moments in time, as much as is possible in this crazy life of ours, so that I won’t forget them. I want to think I won’t forget them, but I can’t rely on that so here goes–my inspiration.

Leo has been having a lot of trouble sleeping the last four or five nights because he’s teething and so stuffed up it’s hard to breathe. Normally he has no trouble and sleeps through the night for the most part. It’s been quite frustrating. Last night after trying to get him to fall asleep in his crib after about 45 minutes I finally picked him up and sat in the rocking chair with him. He calmed down but wasn’t sleeping, so I put my head back and closed my eyes hoping he would get the hint. I realized after a while that he was just staring at me, and I couldn’t resist staring back. Then he reached up and put his hand on my cheek, and we just sat there staring at each other until I cuddled him up a little closer and he finally fell asleep. It was such an amazing moment for me, having my son reach up to me and stare into my eyes. I don’t ever want to forget it.